i just wanna know what my house smells like to other people
current mood: kinda wanna dig myself a giant hole and die in it
I just want this all to pass.. I feel like I never will. I just want to be accepted. I want my parents to accept me.. I’m fucked up, I know.. But please accept me.. I’m trying to be normal.
What really makes me feel crazy is that I didn’t know how in denial I was. I didn’t think my problem was that big but I realised that it wasn’t normal at all. I was just coping and it had become an every day routine thing. Was I really that blind? Was I really okay the whole time? I felt fine.. Am I depressed? Am I okay? I don’t even know anymore.
All I know now is that I’m feeling sad and worthless and that I want to die.
I just really need somebody.
I just want to feel home again. This unwelcoming feeling really hurts because I feel like I have absolutely no one I can talk to. I feel hated. And it’s all my fault.. I fucked up really bad this time and now my parents really don’t like me. They said I’m not in trouble, but it feels so much worse. And I’m not upset that I have to come home right after school anymore, or the fact that I can’t see my boyfriend anymore. I’m just upset that my parents won’t even talk to me or look at me the same way. And this extremely is hard on me.
This just makes me wish I weren’t alive.
I honestly wish I were dead, because maybe they wouldn’t have to deal with me and my problems.. It’d probably be so much easier if I were just gone.
you: that is a nice ass shirt
me: thank you but, to be honest, its called “pants” and not an “ass shirt”
1. Last kiss
2. Last phone call
3. Last text message
4. Last song you listened to
5. Last time you cried
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice
7. Been cheated on
8. Self harmed
9. Lost someone special
10. Been depressed
11. Been drunk and threw up
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
12. had sex
13. How many people have you had sex with this year?
15. Made a new friend
17. Laughed until you cried
18. Met someone who changed you
19. Found out who your true friends were
20. Found out someone was talking about you
26. What did you do for your last Birthday
27. What time did you wake up today
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for
30. Last time you saw your all of your siblings at the same time
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life
32. What are you listening to right now
33. When is the last time you had sex?
34. Who's getting on your nerves right now
35. Most visited webpage
36. Favorite colour
38. Relationship Status
39. Zodiac sign
40. Male or female
41. Primary school
42. Secondary School
43. High school/college
44. Eye color
47. Do you have a crush on someone
48. What do you like about yourself
51. Righty or lefty
53. First piercing
54. First best friend
55. First hookup
56. First Bestfriend
61. I'm about to
62. Listening to
63. Waiting for
64. Want kids?
65. Get married?
WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes
68. Hugs or kisses
69. Shorter or taller
70. Older or Younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud
74. Hook-up or relationship
HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger
77. Drank hard liquor
78. Lost glasses/contacts
79. Had sex
80. Broken someone's heart
82. Been arrested
83. Turned someone down
84. Cried when someone died
85. Fallen for a friend
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
88. Love at first sight
90. Santa Clause
91. Kiss on the first date
93. How would you label yourself?
94. Someone You Pray Everyday For
95. Did you sing today
96. Who From All Your Ex's have You Cared The Most About
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?
98. Out Of Everything In The World What Do You Wish For
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?
100. Do you like the way you look?
Actually ask me something. Anon or not.